My life is a miracle but…
I don’t think Snoop’s new show is gonna be a hit.
It seemed kind of staged to me and I was so excited to watch it because I love Snoop. Oh well..
It seems as though several women in my life are having great luck with men lately. It’s all I hear about during our conversations. They are all blown away that the drought is over.
Tamara can’t stop talking about it in amazement. “Tee,” she said. “Seriously. You know how in your mind you imagine this guy that you would always want but you don’t really believe he exists?”
I raised my eyebrow and stared at the phone. A Fantasy man? Uh..yeah. I think I’ve been there before.
“Girl, imagine having him right in front of you? That’s how I feel. This man is ALL THAT girl!”
I laughed at her.
Even Kim has joined in the fun. She has a little boyfriend now.
I am quite shocked by this, but my feelings are turning to excitement because she says he treats her just the way she NEEDS to be treated. He shows her off. He takes great care of her. “He’s very consistent,” she said. “I love that about him.”
Now I know that I set a goal for myself for manifesting my soulmate by New Year’s Eve. I figured that if I believed that he does exist and I showed absolute faith then he would show up. But as I learned to appreciate my current situation, I started to feel as though I don’t really need a man in my life because I’m happy right now.
So that gave me peace and I let go of the anxiousness about believing he will show up by New Years like I asked God.
So that’s where I am now. I’m a little scared though cuz…I already asked for him…what if dude shows up anyway? LOL!
I was talking to Tamara tonight after her weekend trip to see her Pretty Boy and she asked me about the status of the different men that I have in my life.
I like this about him…but I don’t like that…
He’s so fine..but…we don’t have that chemistry like I know should be there.
“I think I equate love with spoiling me,” I told her. “I just want someone who thinks spending money is no object when it comes to me.” These dudes I keep meeting are always on a budget and shit.
I want him to adorn me with all these beautiful things and thoughtful gifts. I think I get that from my Mama. Her husband SPOILS her. She doesn’t even have to think twice about anything she wants. She only mentions it in passing and the next day or so, he presents it to her. She doesn’t cook or clean. He does all that.
“He takes such good care of me,” my Mama always brags.
I want some of THAT action!
I don’t care if I had a JILLION GAZILLION dollars in the bank I want my man to SPOIL ME anyway. It’s not even about the price of the gift. It’s really about having someone who cares enough to take ACTION to make sure that you are comfortable and pleased at all times.
It’s called being THOUGHTFUL.
Damn…people think I’m a gold digger. But I’m really not. I just don’t want some man who complains about spending money like it’s the last dollar he’ll ever have. What a defeated mentality. It’s as though he doesn’t understand the real source of his income. It’s not him, it’s God’s provision. It’s really infinite, money is meant to be SPENT.
Just..make my comfort and pleasure your priority and…you won’t EVER have to want for anything.
In fact…you’ll find that I’m doing the same for you.
I’ll never say No to you about anything if you treat me like that….and that’s a promise.
And if I never meet a man who does that then I’ll stay single because…guess what? I’m already happy with the way things are.