Life’s Pressing Motivations

I hadn’t heard from my friend Dianna in two weeks when I called her fussing her out for neglecting me. We always fuss each other out, that’s how we show love.

But I wasn’t ready for the reason why she said she had been missing.

Her little brother passed away.

Her family has been in grief ever since. They have an exceptionally close family and they have been through hell and back but they take care of each other unlike any family I had ever witnessed.

Around the same time I read that The Radio Man’s father passed away and that also took a toll on my heart. I dreamt about him that night. That dream shook me.

And then…When I heard that Kanye’s Mom passed I didn’t know what to do. It seems like the world is moving so fast around me that I can’t do anything to stop it. I am hurting so much for him.

Under the emotional strain of dealing with these deaths I sat back and looked at my own life choices.

Is there anyone that I need to reconcile with?

Is there anyone that I need to forgive?

Are there words that I wish I had the guts to say but were too afraid to speak?

Yes.

Yes.

Yes.

And there’s something else that I need to do.

I need to continue what I started on this blog. My efforts toward manifesting my fantasy life through concerted efforts and believing in my dream all catalogued in real time will always remind me of where I have been and where I am going.

I thank God for the downtime and for the motivation to write again.

I will never give up.