Letting Go For The New Year Part III

My life is a miracle.

For most of my life I have been a motivator, constantly seeking to show others the light within themselves and receiving joy from expressing appreciation for the people that I met.

Inside I was battling to recognize my own worth. My self talk was so negative and I consistently repeated, “I hate myself,” whenever I felt like I did something that was less than perfect.

Religion didn’t make things any better for me. I found myself falling deeper in my self loathing as I tried to prove myself to be a good Christian to God and my Pastor. I couldn’t get it right, I was always striving for better, crying when I wasn’t perfect, beating myself up for being…human. I rarely celebrated myself because I figured that even the small victories were just blind luck and wouldn’t last long.

This year for the first time I heard the words “All is well. You are exactly where you are supposed to be. You have done nothing wrong. You are a blessed creation of God and you are exactly who you are supposed to be.”

Those words freed me because…I believed them.

Now the new belief in my heart has taken over my former belief that I am not worthy of good things, I’m a sinner, no one will love me.

I AM worthy of a brilliant life.

I AM NOT a sinner.

I DO have love and I deserve it.

I am breaking free from the old belief that other people deserve happiness more than I do.

I have moved on from thinking that I have made so many mistakes that my future can’t recover.

I have not made any mistakes. I have learned many lessons and I am grateful for each choice that I have made. Each decision has led me to this wonderful place right here. This place in my heart that lets me know…I am doing just fine.

I no longer care what my BBDD thinks of me. He can have all the opinions that he wants, they don’t define me anymore.

I now truly believe that as much good as I try to project into the world, whether it’s received, perceived in truth, or not…it’s all coming back to me…SOON in avalanches of blessings that will be too miraculous to maintain.

I DO deserve a wonderful life. I DO deserve someone who cherishes me and will protect and support me, guide me into well being and love me like I imagined in my dreams.

I AM already successful simply because I didn’t let life beat me down. I’m not a quitter. I’m not a loser. I WIN! I WIN every single day.

I’m letting go of everyone and everything that tried to push me to do things that pleased them. I deserve to be pleased too.

I used to be the giver, but now I will relax and be the receiver of all the love and encouragement that I always wanted for myself.

I receive these blessings, under grace, in perfect ways.

Goodbye OldMe…