My life is a miracle.
Tamara called me tonight.
“Hey girl!,” she said.
“Hollup,” I said. “Let me get off the other line.
When I came back I was so excited to report the news of my latest manifestation.
“Guess what I manifested today?” I asked her.
“Oh Lord…What?”
“A GOON?”
“Huh? What’s that?”
“You are so lame,” I said.
“I know..What is it?”
“I think it means thug, Prince. After listening to that rapper Plies last week I thought to myself, I’d like to try that.”
“Where’d you meet him?”
“Girl, I was on my way to pick up my boys and I decided to surprise them by cleaning out my car. Just this week I noticed that my tires needed air and I said, ‘I need someone to come take care of all of this.'”
So when I got to the gas station I parked behind a truck in front of the vacuum and went inside to pay for my car wash. As I was paying I heard a voice behind me say, “Did I block you in?”
I turned around and saw the most adorbale smile I’ve seen in a long time. But along with this smile I see a full grill of gold teeth, long dreads tied up in a ponytail and he was wearing a long white tee.
I glanced out the window to see what he was talking about and I realized that he must be the guy with the truck.
“Oh yeah,” I told him. “I’m just waiting to use the vaccum.”
“Do you want me to vaccum your car for you?”
“Yes!,” I said, maybe a little too emphatically.
I was so excited! I had JUST prayed for someone to help me with my car. “I manifested this!” I thought. Wow. I am SUCH a powerful creator!
He smiled at me and followed me outside. I pulled my car up and told him that I needed air in my tires too. He took care of all of that and then we turned to face each other.
Hmmm..He’s a cutie.
“Thank you! You’re an angel,” I told him.
“So, I bet you have a boyfriend,” he said.
“Hmm…I have a dream,” I responded.
“Well, I bet you don’t have room in your dream for a new friend, huh?”
I looked him up and down, noticing how even at the gas station, his clothes were nice and crisp, his line-up was precise and he seemed to be in shape. I had never dealt with a guy who looked like this before but I was excited to see what would happen. I thought of Anna and how she used to gush about her THUG PASSION.
“I can make room for a new friend,” I told him and took his number.
After a long, long day of wrestling with my boys at the park and a little Christmas shopping, I was all out of money and very tired. As I drove back home after dropping them off I re inforced to myself how this manifestation thing works.
When I casually express a desire and then..just forget about it, it always shows up within a few days. Those desires that I worry about and meditate on, don’t show up until the very last minute that I need them to.
I need to remember that everything that I ask for, is already given, so I don’t need to keep praying about it and stressing over it because that will delay the process. I need to stop blocking the process by worrying about if it will happen.
“Oh, I have dated 3 of those,” Tamara said, referring to the GOON in question. “They are usually very nice and are used to women asking for things so when you don’t ask, they do more.”
“Do I have to change anything about myself,” I asked.
“No. That’s the thing. You can be who you are and they like that. If you want to act a fool in the club, they’ll just laugh. They are even more impressed when you are being who you are. I’ll tell you one thing though. Those guys are the most difficult to walk away from because you keep telling yourself that he’s not your type and you shouldn’t even be liking him like that but then you look at him and think, ‘But there’s something about him. I don’t know what..’ Then you get caught up.”
“I’m going to call him,” I told her. “See what’s up with him.”
And I did.
“Hey Angel,” I greeted him when he answered the phone. “This is Ms. Tee.”
“Oh yeah. What’s up with you?”
“I’m tired but I decided to say thanks again for being an angel today. What have you been doing?”
“Nothing but thinking about you all day.”
“Aww..That’s sweet.”
“I’m for real. There’s something about you. You have such a good spirit. When can I see you again?”
“Well..hopefully soon.”