The Coming Out Experiment

So in the wake of the Amendment 8 being voted against in California, which basically means that same sex marriages are not legal, I came to this point where I just…want to put it out there that I’m neither heterosexual nor homosexual. This probably means I’m bi sexual since I am attracted to both sexes.

Well I am…

And what does this mean? I don’t know. Will people perceive me differently if I label myself as bi sexual? Does it matter?

Most people who have read my blog for years have followed me as I fought this battle with my sexual identity eventually deciding not to wear a label at all. So, if I am attracted to women but I prefer secks with men and I decide to label myself as bi sexual, will that affect my professional or personal goals?

Tonight I was on the phone with my sister when I said, “I think I’m gonna write that I’m bi-sexual on my facebook status.”

“So? Wait…Do you think you should do that on the internet? Will it cause controversy when your book comes out?”

“I don’t know,” I replied. “But I do want people to know that my book has homosexual and bi sexual themes throughout. I wanted it to be inclusive. My message is a message for everyone.”

“Well go ahead then,” she said.

So I went to my facebook page and I wrote: “A bisexual is a person who is attracted to both sexes. Yeah. That’s me. I’m an equal opportunity lover.”

Within 5 minutes I get a warning message from one of my college friends saying, “Be careful what you put out on the internet as its a small world.”

To which I replied something like, “Thanks for the warning but anyone who is a part of my life should and WILL respect my life and lifestyle. Do you have to hide parts of who you are? I have no shame. I love myself so much and others do too.”

Does labeling myself as a bi sexual really affect how others view me? Am I different today than I was yesterday? Could people really be that judgemental?

Hmm? Only time will tell. I’ll keep you updated.

Tamara…Are you going to kill me?