Blogging til the POWER goes out!

We’re all ready to face the storm. Well, as ready as we can be. I don’t live so close to the water so I don’t think that they will make us evacuate. Everyone was running around like crazy today trying to fill up their cars with gas. If the storm hits us, then electricity will be off and no one will be able to get any gas. So there I was at 7am in the ridiculous line at the gas station. I was lucky, most gas stations are closed because they ran out of gas. There is no more water in the stores, ppl are substituting with Gatorade. Everyone in the hood is stocking up on liquor. Anna called me and said, “You think it’s bad for me to get a bottle to ride out with during the storm?” I responded, “Girl, no. In fact, me and my boys will be over there with you.”

EMAIL!

I received an email question today that really had me thinking. The question was: Do you think Jesus ever felt inadequate? The young lady was asking because she was a little discouraged because of her job situation and she wanted to know if Jesus could understand her feelings.

Here is my response:

Life after college…I don’t think anyone is really prepared for the working world although it seems we spend half our lives preparing ourselves through education. As much as I like to plan and strategize, I still didn’t have a clue what I was gonna do after I graduated.

College is this big false reality all in itself. We’re all so happy go lucky in school, (well some of us,) dreaming of the day when we graduate and head off to plush jobs that satisfy our need to be getting paid for our passions. Most times, we find that what we want to do and what we are doing are mismatched.

You are feeling inadequate? Why? Inadequacy is the feeling of not being good enough, or being incapable of doing something. You know you are capable, there are just limited opportunities to prove your capability.

But like I said before, I create my own opportunities because I believe I can do anything, (except math). You can pray for an opportunity to come your way or you can ask for wisdom to create your own opportunity. I would choose the latter. In the meantime, I would do what I love to do for free. That’s why i have my blog. I write for free, I have an audience, I’m doing what I love to do most, being honest about my life so that ppl can see my heart and realize that the success I will attain is not because of my own efforts, but God’s favor on my life. My ministry is my transparency and my heart to see others achieve success in their lives.

What is yours?

Your question about Jesus feeling inadequate is a good one. I thought about it for a minute and I concluded that even if there was no mention of Him feeling that way in the Bible, you have to know that He understands what you are feeling. He understands.

He probably didn’t feel inadequate because he knew His purpose for being here. He knew that God sent Him to die for us, and since He was confident that His mission was God’s will for His life, He could not doubt His ability to do the assigned work. God wwouldn’tsend Him if He wasn’t capable.

Once you figure out what God wants you to contribute to this world, you have to have that same confidence that He gave you that mission because He knows you are capable. Inadequacy is just a trick of your heart to make you think that you aren’t up for the challenge. But you are, if you know what you are here for and God has spoken to your heart.

There are times when I feel like I’m on this grand journey that seems crazy because of the obstacles that I face. Who knew that my being arrested would become an issue with employers? It has. But… there is not ONE DAY that I doubt what I KNOW God sent me here to do. I just can’t see the journey, and that’s okay… Cuz I know I was sent and I am capable.

Gain that knowledge about what you are supposed to do and sow your confidence in Christ and not yourself.

Be encouraged.



After Yolanda emailed me about one of my last posts I was amazed that she pinpointed exactly why I was restless. My main objective right now is to achieve security for my family. I can’t just relax because I’m constantly thinking of ways to make more money or jumpstart my career so I can get paid. I just want my boys to grow up better than I did. Granted their father is an attorney and he contributes a lot for their education. I still have to make sure they have a roof over their heads, and hopefully a nice roof.

My problem is, I’m trying to force a situation that has already been taken care of. Since I know that God gifted me with wisdom and an encouraging word for the masses, then I must have confidence that He will take care of my family until His will is fulfilled. I know that I am capable of doing a lot but my heart won’t rest because I want it now. And that may not be God’s plan for me.

The thing about blogging is you have a record of your thoughts and sometimes you have to remind yourself of words that God spoke into your heart. Today I saw an old post that encouraged me. I’ll share a bit of it with you.

“Each step in your journey is just as important as the next. Everything builds from the bottom step. Don’t get frustrated at your humble beginnings. God has a plan if you will just allow Him to guide you. ” -Ms. Tee