Aches & Pains
I don’t understand.
How did I end up here?
I want my Mama.
No I don’t. She’ll just tell me to take a shot and go sit my drunk ass down.
I don’t know what I want.
I want to follow the rules but I also want to be happy.
Where’s the dividing line?
Where’s the guarantee that either path will lead to my ultimate happiness?
I want to be happy and fulfilled in my career. But I also want to be there for my sons and enjoy the fulfillment of being a mother. I miss being a Mama everyday. I couldn’t enjoy this career if I had my boys. Not doing it all by myself.
Have I traded my blessing of motherhood for a dream that isn’t even guaranteed?