I WON! I WON!

I was literaly floating off of my day yesterday. I enjoyed my day off so much. I was well rested. I spent time with my homegirl AND I got to see my boy Reggie with his FINE self!

Lately I’ve been singing these kinda happy tunes in my heart. I honestly think it came the day after I realized that the job I have now is not the end all be all. See, I was looking for a place to work and get some stability. This school is perfect for that. No one ever gets fired. 100% insurance coverage. Great people, good money. A minute away from my house. It’s just one thing; I don’t feel like I’m using ANY of my talents at this job.

I’m started to be bored with it. Damn. I guess I thought that making good money doing anything would make me happier than making a little bit of money doing something I love. It doesn’t.

As soon as I began to feel like I was unfulfilled, that sinking feeling was replaced by this sense of reknewed hope. I began to just cry out to God on a consistent basis, asking for direction. I started reading this motivational book everyday, just to feed my mind. I watched Kanye West’s DRIVEN every time it was on AND I made sure to stay in contact with the successful people in my life. I am so eager to learn and grow and become an all around better person.

All of this positive brain food has affected my mood. I find myself daydreaming even more than before. My hopes for my life have become more concrete. I’m constantly outlining the plan and claiming success as my TRUTH. I’m not afraid anymore. I can do this. There’s nothing stopping me but me.

In the midst of all of these encouraging words to myself, my heart song is on overdrive. You can do it! Yeah, you can do it! Do what? I haven’t figured that out yet, but I’m sure it will come. I’ve been feeling like I could move a boulder with a single word.

Powerful.

So I’m sitting on my bed smiling to myself and asking God if He would PLEASE give me a HINT of what’s to come. I feel like I have a present in front of me but it’s not time to open it yet but you know it’s going to be EXACTLY what you always needed.

I’m pulling up my sweatpants when my phone rings. It’s R, a new friend of mine.

“So,” he says. “Are you sleeping?”
“No,” I say and smile. “I’m putting on my pants.”
“Well, I have something to tell ya. I have two tickets to see Kanye West. I bought them for you.”
“Stop playin!”
He laughs. “I’m not playin. Ground floor, row 7. Is that close enough?”
“Stop playin!”
He laughs. “Get yourself a babysitter and invite one of your friends and have a good time.”

I think I hung up with him. I must have.

All I remember is floating around my living room with this sound in my head.

KANYE WEST! KANYE WEST! KANYE WEST! KANYE WEST!

I’m going to the concert! God loves me soo much! He sent a MAN to bless me!

Maybe they aren’t so bad after all…

I have 6 days to find something to wear!

Oh my gosh!