My Life Is Blessed Today

After reading about Kanye’s book I was so jealous.

I don’t know what is wrong with me. I’m so competitive.

I used to feel like that about The Prez, well, I guess I still do. Whenever I read his name in the news, I think to myself, “That’s okay. I can do better than that.”

Isn’t that a weird observation? The men I’m attracted to/infatuated with, in my eyes, are my competition. And I don’t even think I’m competitive. I always get what I want so I don’t feel like I have to fight for it. I just feel like I have to show up and be myself and it will be handed to me.

I’m the only Ms. Tee around. No one can do what I do better than me. I have zero competition for what I love to do. I look around and I see none. No one can bring it with my style. I’m on a cloud all by myself.

So why is it that the men I admire who are accomplishing great things, well, I feel like I have to beat?

Maybe it’s because I want to keep growing, changing and improving professionally and spiritually for the rest of my life and I need someone by my side who is trying to consistently doing the same.

Progress is sexy to me.

Taking risks is sexy to me.

Knowing that you are not supposed to remain an employee for the rest of your life is damn sexy to me.

I don’t know about you but I’ve been feeling great about my life lately. I think it comes from knowing that even though things are not as you feel they should be, you are always still okay. You’re doing just fine. No one is rushing you toward your goal but you. Enjoy the journey, the nooks and crannies and know that each experience is teaching you something that you will need to truly enjoy, expand and maintain that blessing that you are waiting for.

Even when I get a little nervous because I don’t know what’s about to happen, I smile nervously and remind myself that every single month something BIG happens to me. EVERY SINGLE MONTH, my life changes in a big way.

It never fails.

Wow.

It’s almost October 1st. I wonder what great and amazing things lie ahead…